napansin kong panahon ngayon ng pagninilay-nilay. ^_^ hehe wala na kasing sagabal sa pag-iisip ng mga bagay na kailangan nating pag-isipan for psychological health purposes.

What's funny is that once you stopped working erratically, and the moment you take a pause from all that stress, the whole world falls upon you and you feel as if all the weight of the world shifts upon your shoulders. Then you come to think that it might even be better to just have something preoccupy you physically, mentally, than all the unmanaged emotional stress you're feeling.

I guess once we're engaged in physical and mental work, our emotional needs tend to be put on hold. unless of course you're someone who likes a little mix of everything. but I mean, there's also work that YOU SHOULD DO and work YOU WANNA DO. stuff YOU SHOULD THINK ABOUT and stuff YOU WANNA THINK ABOUT. emotions YOU SHOULD FEEL and emotons YOU WANNA FEEL.

and now that all the SHOULD DOs are through, all the WANNA DOs come rushing in and invading our seemingly peaceful state.

Then you find out, that since you actually can't do your WANNA DOs, you get more stressed than ever and you try to find something you SHOULD DO to make you feel as if you're actually a better person because you're doing something expected of you. But deep inside you know you're putting on hold something that you really think is more significant and relevant for your well-being and for the greater good of humanity.

It's mind-wrecking, you know. Having all that unmanaged stress and all the SHOULD DOs mixing and making war with your WANNA DOs. But I guess all we have to do is deal with it. Because sooner or later, we're going to go EUREKA! and wake up with the solution to all our problems. (Of course, with a lot more work and stress connected to it).





If you don't get me, you're not stressed enough.